Goodbye, I Love You

When Carol Lynn Pearson married Gerald, she believed their temple marriage would heal everything—including the homosexuality he'd confessed. Over twelve years, four children, and a wrenching separation, she learned that love could outlast a marriage even as it changed shape. When Gerald was dying of AIDS, she brought him home to care for him. Honest, tender, and unflinching, this landmark memoir explores devotion, faith, womanhood, and the courage to love someone fully—right up to a final goodbye.

• A landmark, deeply human memoir by beloved LDS poet Carol Lynn Pearson about loving her gay husband through marriage, divorce, and his death from AIDS.
• Named and cited for decades as a foundational compassion text for LDS families with gay loved ones.
• A story that refuses easy villains: faith, love, grief, and forgiveness held together with astonishing honesty.
• From the author of the poetry classic 'Beginnings'—the true story behind her later works 'No More Goodbyes' and the play 'Facing East.'

“"Gerald." I took his face in my hands. "Of course I still want you. I'm not so concerned about what you've done as about what you are. I know what you are, I've seen deep inside of you, and I wouldn't give up all that beauty for anything. Of course I want you!"”

Perfect for an adult—LDS or not—seeking a compassionate, honest true story about loving a gay spouse, faith, and facing death, or a Latter-day Saint parent or leader trying to understand and love a gay family member.